just illustrate

dearest, is it your dream to become an illustrator?

then illustrate
illustrate every day
on post-its
on paper
in books
anywhere you feel

and if you want to share with me
camscam that shit and post here.
tell me stories
tell me what happened during the day
with illustrations and texts
post here
post on instagram
post on your tumblr
or save for later
that rimed


I've got work in the mornin

My love,

Existential crises galore! I have them often too. When I ask myself the reason I wake up every morning, these are the thoughts that come through:

1. To better myself and grow into the person I want to be.
Every day I go through a bunch of processes--waking up, picking my clothes, feeding my fish and dog, commuting, getting to work on time, cultivating friendships, building professional relationships, gaining work skills (technical and social), eating healthy and unhealthy food. It's interesting to watch myself develop new habits, shake off old ones, and pick them back up. It's meditative to reflect and see their effects on my general well-being. Every day I'm just practicing and perfecting these things.

2. To have new feelings. There's a poem by Nayyirah Waheed that I love:

there are feelings.
you haven't felt yet.
give them time.
they are almost here.

Sometimes I find the space to do things that push my limits, and I feel new feelings. Although sometimes uncomfortable, I love looking back and bookmarking a moment where I identified a feeling I have never felt before. Just collecting. This is not to say that I don't like my regular feelings that I've already had/identified before.

3. To talk to other people.
As much as I love the relaxation that comes over me when I am alone, I also get bored when I have too much of it. I love being with quirky people who own their quirkiness, and experiencing the quirkiness with them. I also learn a lot of things when I talk to people. Today, I finally caught on to Beyonce's new album (Lemonade) because of a coworker's suggestion.

4. To give love.
If there is anyone in my community that needs support, I like to be there to provide that. I can't provide big support, but small ones--like actively listening, or sharing a lunch break and decompressing. It's my sense of purpose--I guess that's why I want to be a social worker.

5. To receive love.
As selfish as this may sound, I love feeling that people love me. So I wake up and dive right in there to soak it all up.

The blogger you posted last is so wonderful. And she's an illustrator! My dream.
Do you want to web cam soon?

love, c.

Why do you get up in the morning?

Because you didn't die during the night?

I have a bit of an existential crisis. Can you help me? Tell me what do you live for.



When you finally succeed

the perfect eyeliner


My minimalist journey

So it is time to reveal what I've been up to, as you may know already since I've been talking about it on Skype and here. However, I figured that a very, long and not very interesting post about it would be more coherent.

The first time I heard about minimalism was by Leo Babauta from Zenhabits, and at that time he also wrote on and that's where the story begins. I later got inspired by the Minimalists and Minimal Student. I've been paring down and cleaning out my stuff several times but this time I'm going to do the packing party because it just make sense.
Why do I do this?
Well, Ryan said it best: (speaking about Ryan Nicodemus from the Minimalist like I know him personally. I don't. I just read their blog, listen to their podcasts and enjoy their thoughts on minimalism.)

"My life lacked: Meaning. Purpose. Passion. If you would have asked me what I was passionate about, I would have looked at you like a deer in headlights. What am I passionate about? I had no idea. I was living paycheck to paycheck. Living for a paycheck. Living for stuff. Living for a career I didn’t love. But I wasn’t really living at all. I was depressed."
Quote from Ryan's post about Packing Party the Minimalists
In a nutshell, this is my life. Read it again. Yes, it's like looking in a mirror. So I'm going to do this full out, not the half ass versions I've done before. I'm going to find some meaning, purpose and passion. I need to move on from this lifestyle I'm coping with at the moment and start living.



Trunk sale

Yesterday in the spirit of minimalism, I sold som of my stuff at a trunk sale. It's arrenged a few times during the summer and everyone's welcome to sell for a small fee.

It was a success, things I was meant to toss, I sold and I got a bit under 300 SEK for it (36 USD), not too shabby.
I still had some more stuff to sell, like clothes and other stuff in my apartment. Today I'm going to start packing and have a packing party.
I'll write more about my process in the next post.


I'm doin' my spring cleaning. Or paring down. It's time to take minimalism to the next level. I started with emptying everything from my living room to my bedroom and in order for it to have a place in my living room I have to use it. I'm getting some boxes from work and I will sell a lot if stuff.

You know I'm doing minimalism, right? I've been following the Minimalists for a while and  I got more inspired of Zenhabits' post.

I'm taking this action in order to get some clarity. I nees to get rid of every distraction and focus on the real stuff. I'll update you with pictures.